I can't believe it... they announced wednesday that Extreme home make over is coming to my area... they have 5 families they are choosing from... they said that the families reside within a 30 mile radius of a town near me... the town is exactly 30miles from us.

After a week where my heart felt like it was about to wither and die, a week of lack of feelings.

I finally felt again by the way... my step dad said he was sorry for hurting me and the floodgates opened and I bawled. I cried from relief.

But that's not what this post is about.

I have HOPE! A feeling i haven't felt in years... I know that there is no way to know for sure if my family is one of the 5 families they are considering but I HOPE that we are and I pray to god that we are... I pray to god that on October 21st a knock comes at our door and I can hug and kiss Ty (his cheek mind you) and the others and weep.

But even if it isn't us I've signed up to work on the site on my days off. Friday, Saturday, Sunday... I will help who ever gets this gift.

I must also note that 2 strange things are happening. 1 the electric company was out looking at our power lines 2 days ago... and 2 the guy we have talked to about fixing our bathroom (taking payments by some miracle of god) has been stalling for a week and says it could be up to 2 weeks before he gets here.

I don't know... all i ask is for your prayers.